September 25th

Today was my actual 40 week due date. We knew once we found out we were having twins that I would never actually make it to my 40 week mark. This also means that Miss Addison is 5 weeks old already.

I took her to the doctor today for her car seat test. For the past 5 weeks she's been in a car bed because she was under the 5 lbs required for a car seat. The doctors office had to check her oxygen level to make sure it's above 90 for 30 minutes sitting upright in her car seat.

 

Thankfully she passed, so goodbye car bed, hello car seat! She also weighed in at 6 pounds even. Addison is such a sweet baby. She still sleeps all day and night besides when she eats. She does have her moments when she is awake but generally she is sleeping. If she cries and you pick her up she immediately stops, she loves to snuggle.

 

 

And our little Cambree is doing extremely well still. She is the sweetest big sister to Addison. She hasn't tried to hurt her in any way, she is as soft as can be with her. I was a little nervous because I know how older siblings can tend to rebel once a new baby is brought home but that isn't the case for Cambree. She talks to her and thinks she as cute as can be but then is running and playing the very next minute. Cambree's new obsession right now besides Toy Story 3 is BUBBLES! She sits outside and attempts to blow bubbles. She doesn't quite understand yet that she can't put her mouth right on the wand...so mommy has to help.

 

 

 

Other than that our little family is doing well. Taking it one day at a time.

Our Girls...

We were lucky enough to have my sister in law Aimee from Aime' Photography join us in the Operating Room to take pictures of our girls birth. I am amazed at how willing the staff at the University of Utah Hospital was to help her and us in any way that they could, they really catered to our situation.

Aimee was such a comfort to me during the whole day. I can't even explain how exceptional the photographs she was able to capture for us are. They give me peace and happiness when I look at them. I am so lucky to have her as a sister in law, she is one of the sweetest, loving, kindest, easy going individuals that I know. I am truly grateful for her willingness to spend the entire day with us at the hospital to capture our special time together as a family. Love you Aimee.

 

Some good news...

I promised Benton once we had the babies I would go get the TEE procedure done on my heart.  It has been something we've worried about since I had the TIA this past year.  It involved a Cardiologist sticking a tube down my throat so they could get a better view of my heart and be able to see how big the whole in my heart actually is. 

Benton dropped me off at Lakeview Hospital at 7am this morning.  He was able to work from home and watch Addison.  My wonderful Mother in law came and picked Cambree up, so Benton could work without her as a distraction. 

It was weird being at the hospital all by myself.  I started feeling nervous and then I decided I've already experienced the worst thing I could ever experience in my life, so what do I have to be afraid of? And weirdly enough I was as calm as could be, all of my fears were gone.

 I honestly was expecting the worst, and was delightfully surprised with good news.  I do have a PFO (Patenet foramen ovale) which is a hole between the left and right atria (upper chambers) of the heart that fails to close naturally soon after a baby is born.  So I've had it my whole life and it didn't affect me until this past year.  Thankfully my whole is small enough where they don't need to do any surgery to close it up.  All I have to do is take a Baby Asprin every day to help thin my blood so that another clot doesn't happen and travel up into my brain again. 

I am so thankful all is well with me.  It's one less thing for us to worry about.  I'm glad I went and had the procedure, so I don't have to wonder and worry anymore!

State Fair

My parents and sister decided to go to the State Fair this past weekend and invited Cambree to join them. I decided since I hadn't been out in a month, I should get out of the house and join them.

It was my first time really leaving Addison. I wasn't too sad to leave her since she was home with her daddy. She's such a snuggle bug, I had to give her loves before Cambree and I left...

 

As we started walking around, I was pushing Cambree in her stroller and she said "Here papa" and reached out her hand. It was pretty dang cute, I was pushing her in her stroller while she held my dad's hand. Such a Papa's girl.

 

Cambree LOVES animals. Any kind of animal to her is cute. She was excited to ride the pony's. I can't believe how big she's getting, she looked so independent while riding the pony. You could tell even though she had a serious face, she really enjoyed it. All day today she has talked about riding the horsey's.

 

We walked barn to barn looking at all the animals, and Cambree was beyond thrilled. She would shriek and giggle when we'd enter each stable and see the different animals. She has no fear what so ever. She walked right up to all the animals to pet them. We asked if she could pet this huge cow, they told us as long as she stood behind the cow that it was fine to pet him. She didn't care where she needed to stand as long as she could pet the cow, she was happy.

 

 

I was so happy I joined Cambree at the fair with my family. I love to see her excitement.

 

The kids of course went on some rides. Spencer and Cambree were cute riding the train together, they held hands most of the ride.

 

One of Cambree's favorite rides is the carousel. I love this picture, it makes me want to be little again with no cares in the world.

 

Chelsie and cute little Emma on the carousel...

 

And the last ride of the night was a ride I'll never forget. Since Cambree isn't quite tall enough, I had to go on this hot air balloon ride with her. I took this picture before we took off. The ride went up and down in the sky, not very high since it was a kids ride. As we started taking off she made a noise of nervousness, it made me laugh because of her facial expression. After that she hysterically laughed the rest of the ride, which made me laugh so hard that I can't remember the last time I laughed that hard. You could tell she was in pure heaven. Moments like that make me feel so blessed as a mom, that I can experience simple joys in life with my kids. It was the perfect way to end the night.

 

As I sit here I am grateful for every moment I have with my family. Allie impacted my life in such a wonderful way. I've learned since her death that she makes me want to be a better mother. And nothing else really matters in this world than loving those around you. I can't even explain just how much I love my girls. They are everything to me.

 

It was a perfect night.

Life Lately

I cannot get over how quickly life passes you by. It's been almost 4 weeks since our little girls were born, it makes me cry just thinking about it.

Life at the Carnahan residence has sure been different. I for one have secluded myself indoors these past weeks. I haven't really been talking to anyone besides Benton. I have made myself answer phone calls from our family. Unfortunately for my friends I have been declining your phone calls and not returning your messages. I love everyone for their support, I've needed it and will continue to need it. So please don't give up on me. I'm just not ready to talk about it yet.

We've been taking Addison into the doctor weekly because of her weight. At three weeks she weighed in at 5 lbs 2 oz. My doctor talked to us about avoiding large groups of people for the upcoming holidays, which is hard since that's pretty much what the holidays are all about. But honestly in the grand scheme of things missing one year of spending the holidays with our families isn't the worst thing that can happen. So we've become over protective with our little baby, Addison. Our doctor said "Make sure you ask everyone before they come over that they aren't sick. Also ask them to wash their hands really good and not to kiss her face & hands. And ask Grandparents to get their whooping cough vaccine & flu shot." So that's what we are doing, following the rules of our doctor to the tee.

Cambree is getting a little house sick. She asks me to go bye bye everyday. I don't feel comfortable driving Addison around in her flat car seat, so I tell her she has to wait till daddy gets home. So we've had to entertain ourselves like never before. If you know me, you know that I like to go go go. So it's quite different being home all day everyday.

Cam playing dress up as Minnie Mouse...

 

Making cookies...

 

We've been sitting outside on our front porch. This is Cambree looking with her eyes. If you ask her what she sees, this is what she does...

 

Cambree and I went to Target last weekend to buy Cambree some new shoes, since she's grown out of her other ones. I'm going to be in trouble with this little girl, she LOVES shoes. I couldn't resist buying her these pink boots, they looked too cute on her. She must put them on ALL by herself!

 

 

Sponge bath time for Addie, she didn't like it very much...

 

Miss Addison's umbilical cord finally fell out so she was able to get her first bath and she was so content. We were expecting her to cry, but she quite enjoyed the warm water.

 

 

After both girls are clean, Cambree loves to snuggle up to her "baby ister".

 

Time for bed, Miss Addison is tired...

 

And here's Miss Cambree. Do any of your kids look like this when they go to bed? She asks for each of her stuffed animals and is very specific about what books she has in bed as well, it's quite a production.

 

And my favorite, Cambree's morning hair...gotta love a bees nest each morning!

 

We've LOVED every minute we've had with Miss Addison. She sleeps all day besides when it's time to eat. I'm sure it's because she is growing and needs her strength.

Hopefully with time my pain won't hurt so bad. I just never know when something is going to remind me of our sweet Allie and make me burst into tears. We sure do miss our little sweetheart. I guess it makes us grateful for the two little sweeties we have here on earth, I don't know what I'd do without them.